July 21, 2011

The Four-Year Itch

It must be a summer thing. Last summer, I was feeling it, and I'm feeling it again. I feel like it's time for a change. I just found out today that one of my co-workers is leaving our team for another job elsewhere. I'm not surprised by the move. This guy did a lot and didn't really get rewarded. Still, it sucks. That leaves only 2 full-time developers (including me) on the team. It was already bad enough that last month another co-worker who was an awesome guy to work with had left the team.

The guy who's leaving handles a lot of the annoying support stuff. Including the on-call crap. I'm getting too old and too tired to deal with on-call support stuff. I avoid it like the plague. And now, with only two of us full-time dev resources, I have a feeling that a lot of the crap is going to fall on me. Plus I can't pull the seniority card, because the other guy is fairly senior too (albeit a bit less senior).

All of this calamity of course coincides with the fact that I've been rather unhappy at work. I am not too excited about the work that I am doing. I am bored out of my mind. While I have plenty of work to keep me busy, I have little motivation to do it. That is not good. It gets done, mind you, but it is a struggle to sit there at my desk and do this work. Especially since we have been banished to the basement since early July and I don't even get to see daylight. Or anyone outside my team - we are in a space big enough for only my team alone. Can you say sucktacular?

Anyway, this year's rut is severe enough that I am now motivated to look for a new job. Probably in the same industry. At the same time, I would love to kick-start that photography work. I just don't know how. I've got a decent portfolio, but my Web site sucks. I can put a site together, but a) it would be really time-consuming and b) the type of site I want is outside the realm of my ability.

So even if I pursue this photography thing, all I can think of is how my parents will react. They'd probably have a heart attack. They'd probably wonder why on earth I went to school to study engineering in the first place if I was going to just end up pissing it away. And why would I give up a perfectly good career in IT to pursue photography? That's a hobby. That's not a real job.

So here I am. Stuck. Itching to get out. I have no doubt that I will get out of this, but what I end up doing is totally up in the air.

1 comment:

Fawn said...

Easy for me to say, but: you've got to live your life for YOU, not your parents, right? University isn't just about training in a specific field, it's also about attaining standards, learning how to think and research, learning how to live independently. Most people our age are going to have 3 or 4 career changes in their lifetime; that means, most of us will end up working in a field other than what we studied. Passion, if you find something to be passionate about, is not something to be squandered, in my humble opinion.